Sep 30, 2009

Childhood memories

Ok, so this one is about me and my past life, I have a lot of memories about my childhood, but today while talking to Liam and Drew I remembered something I haven't thought about in ages, something that's hitting all the world as we speak, the thing that makes the world go 'round, Money.

While I was a little kid and I mean five or eight years my family didn't have any economical need as we were pretty good, I even got to go to Disney World when I was seven : ) great memories there. However that all changed in 1994, when the elected president took over and the former president ran away to Switzerland leaving the whole country bankrupt. Have you ever heard the term "smelly poor", well, I couldn't even afford the smell. Got into delivering bottles of 20 L (4.40 Gallons) of water to people's homes when I was eight, it wasn't as hard as it might look like, although delivering to the third floor and beyond was the catch.

So you think being attracted to guys and adolescence is hard? try doing it while trying to feed your family and then you tell me about hard. Weirdest part is, I'm the middle son and I worked to help my older brother to get through the univesity, I'm not complaining, I've always been the hard worker -still it wouldn't have hurted him to help a little- and someway or another got to highschool, then I started to work for my parents, helping them sell food at the same middle-school I used to attend months before -Oh, yeah, they were there while I was studying too, most people would be ashamed their parents at their schools day in day out, not me, I was proud of them- but left-overs were pretty good, my dad hasn't always been the cook he is now, but he HAD to learn, and later I would too, grades weren't that good at school, but I was tired by the time I got there, but at least I could eat something before going, THAT was a great difference.

Got into the Uni, started studying chemistry and microbiology, stopped helping my parents to study real hard, at the third year I realized I wasn't cut to do something like being in a laboratory studying the causes of diseases, I wanted to help people, and I knew I could create vaccines, help people with infections, but I wouldn't be working with people, I would be working with lab-rats and the like. So dropped out and started teaching english -I know, mine isn't that good either, but you stand in front of a class telling them you know more then they'll listen-
after that I got into psychology as a last minute choice, I wanted to listen to people's concerns and help them out, still not knowing what was up with me and trying to be part of the "normal" ppl I couldn't get to "explore" the same sex relationships, up until then I was pretty worried with surviving to get into any kind of relationships -except for my first gf which dumped me just before I quited at the Uni- when I finally accepted I liked boys was the time I decided I have found the community I want to be part of and help get stronger : ) I could also like to work at a school as a counselor, but maybe later.

So there you go, a little more about me, so if you were to ask me why I don't care about money, I would say, I lived without it for a long long time, and if you were to ask me why I want to help people, I would say, wouldn't you?

That's me in a nutshell, no, it wasn't meant to make you feel pity about me -hate pity- nor I feel ashamed about myself, as a matter of fact I'm proud of myself, been a long way to be who I am today, I mean, I'm not swimming in money, but have enough to be here today with you, and truth be told, that's all that matters to me. Be happy and enjoy today, you might miss it tomorrow.
Love to all


Mr. Urs said...

You have all reason to be proud (although Carlos Slim might not quite share your view).

Luckily, we Swiss give our president no power whatsoever. It is especially clever right now, since the one in office is a complete moron - or more precise a bull in a china shop.

MartininBroda said...

If I not would already have been a follower, I would have chosen it now. Seems you are an impressive person. I'll second Urs-Michael [:-)]opinion about you.

Aek said...

There's nothing to be ashamed of, you should be proud! You've gotten quite far in life and that's no small feat. Thanks for sharing your story. :)

Anonymous said...

funny - before I got to your final words of this post I was thinking exactly what you wrote - you have a lot of be proud of, much more in fact than lots of people who haven't had to work their way through anyway

y78ilm said...

Thanks for sharing. Life isn't always easy, and the beatings we take helps shape us to who we are.

Twohornschild said...

Staying strong is difficult. Still we always climb right back up. We tends to find something to be proud of or a reason to be strong. I hate it when this is alright and the others come tumbling down on you again. somehow we still get back up and be strong. What i really hate is that, why is there no such moment where we could stop and just have a tiny little time to have a shoulder to cry on. Again we must go on... :) Just wining.... Aiks!!!

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