Economical crisis

First of all a quick review on comments, Aek thank you so much for your support and I can't thank you enough about your reference to my blog in your last post, and Mr. Urs is totally right, sometimes I become the resentful, ire-ridden, manipulative bitch everyone hates dealing with, enjoys watching from affar and turns into every once in a while, but I promise not let her come out sooo often. And as for David welcome to the club now -my eighth follower, almost there =)- looking forward to talking to you, so you should add a msn address people can reach you in.

In other news I've been checking my economical state, and thanks to my scarce (now, that's an eufemism) savings I'll have to survive my last semester with an average of $200 (pesos) a week, wich according with the bank it would be less than $15 dollars, so if I pull this one up I guess I'll run for president in my country, because I have to pay for transportation, at least one meal a day, books, photocopies, and all the expenses that must be done. Still my situation is a not so bad one, there are people that have to feed their entire families with that money each week.

So bad is the economic situation that even restaurants are starting to make new campaings to attract people:

translation: FREE CHILDREN saturdays and sundays. *after one o'clock*

So now you know, you want a child, come to Mexico and enjoy our children give-away. I should work at a travel agency : P

Big hugs to everyone, also I if you have a lover remember him/her why they are so lucky to have you with them asap, if I had someone I wouldn't miss the chance you have tonight.

P.S. you know I wouldn't leave you even if no one else reads this thing, as long as one person is reading I'll keep posting because I've made some great friends over the last couple of days and I never leave a friend hanging on a string.

Anger Issues

Today I found myself cursing people in my mind an almost elbowing them as I passed next to them while walking on a speedy pace, almost like jogging and all of a sudden realized there is something wrong with me. and I've got two things on my mind making me sick to my stomach, one in my personal life and one in general, and I'd like to begin describing the later, it has been brought to my attention that a lot of blogs are being shut down, now I know I'm new here and maybe that's why I don't understand the nature of this I think maybe it is because this blogs had explicit contents, but then again where is the line? Am I going to be censored if I say the word F*çk? well, what do you know.

Now to my life, aah my life, how wonderful it was, anyways, I've been going to my school on recent days as my new job and my school's timetable were a little odd, so I had to go and talk to my principal (my ex) so he authorizes this changes, now he didn't know I was going, I just texted with a friend of mine that works at his office, she asked me to tell her when I was arriving, so I told her and after that she sends me the weirdest message saying something like "you know how Charly is, he misses you but he won't tell you openly", so as strange as it was got me thinking and I didn't know what to answer so didn't. As I got to school I met with this girl and we talked and she told me that Charly has been in the weirdest mood he even took her phone from her hands as she was recieving my message, so I asked her if she wrote the last message I got and told me that she didn't and didn't know what I was talking about. Ok, so I think he might want to talk to me about something, I wait for him and all he does is ignore me all the way, he starts talking on the telephone with his friends and while I'm there he starts telling them of the last one night stand he had, he summons some of my classmates and we go to eat and still doesn't talk to me, all this to avoid me from talking to me, I get it! you don't want to talk to me, but after I come home he texts me telling me I looked as if I had something to tell him! F*çk!! I got really pissed as he now starts to project his feelings into me, so I just reply nothing in particular, just wanted to see how you're doing, had to go to school but you weren't interested so I had to leave, want to talk?

I'm still waiting for his answer. He's being so childish and talking defensively, thoser are two things that cut all the love, I did similar things to my first boyfriend and now know they do no good at all, and I assure you I'm not his first boyfriend.

Anyways, on a lighter side of life I met this awesome boy author of the slowest moving train. Turns out he's a young writer from Australia and has won a writing contest and now he's moving into the state finals it is really a great short story everyone should read which is really really good, don't trust me? go ahead and read it, bear in mind he just won a f*çking award!!

I appologize for the long post but I was really frustrated, right now I'm dancing in my seat to the beat of "All together now". Love that song =) and feeling better.

AAh, before I forget I'd like to welcome all my new readers, thank you guys, I write this for you (well, this one was mostly for me but I'll never say hehe), and I'm getting closer to my goal of having 10 readers in the first month, otherwise I'll stop writing :( please, don't let that happen.

Anyways a big hug to everyone where ever you might be

P.S. FFFF****ççççkkkk!!! sorry, had to try it one last time :)

New Job :)

I know in an old post I said I needed some spare time to study so I had to quit teaching but today I just had a great opportunity, now people might think is not a job because is pro bono service but I just have to give something back to the society from which I've taken so much hehe, so today I went to a LGBT center and saw they where searching for people that might give some psychological counseling, and being as I am knew I couldn't let this opportunity pass. So I had an interview with the project director, a great guy who seemed a little worried that I might not like the project or that I had some prejudices against gay people, and when I told him that I was into that he relaxed a lot and started making jokes and smiling, so we got along great and explained me that they do HIV tests for anyone who decided to take one and that they needed a counselor for the pre-while-post of this tests, so over the next week I'll be reading and learning most of what there is to know about STDs, hygene and how to give confort and guidance to HIV possitive people. This is a great thing for me as I love to help people, that's why I chose my carrer and I'm glad I give be able to give something back.

So wish some luck to the proud new counselor

A walk down memory lane

As I was sick and didn't have much strength to go out the 6th I postponed my date with my high-school friend (satou) for today, and even though he came up with the time at which he would be able to make it he arrived one hour later, luckily I had taken some precautions and took the book I'm reading with me, after all that he arrived and we got to walk up and down the streets with no destination, I was really hungry and we walked into a cafeteria we found and had some lunch, after that we talked for about two hours of all the stuff we used to do and games we played (as we used to play roleplaying games everyday after school), and so shared a lot of chronicles and adventures I used to tell all my friends.

After two hours of laughing and a waitress staring at us (mostly me -b/c she needed the table- haha) we got up and walked for about another hour until it was getting really cold and windy, and as I didn't want the evening to end I invited him for a coffee at the nearest coffee shop which was really great as we started talking about all the relationships we've had and so I came out to him, he took it really well, in fact three minutes later he leaned against me until his shoulder was just against mine, I in turn leaned against him and once we got comfortable I reached with my arm and hugged him from behind and so we talked for almost half an hour still talking about all the girls and boys in my case as it turns out he never had any boy-on-boy relationship (though he doesn't seem unconfortable around boys), it seems he's not certain of taking things to another level with his girlfriend and she doesn't seem too interested in spicing things in her relationship, however I'm not going to get in the way of their relationship, I wish him the best and if he so desires take his time and work things a little more slowly, I'm not about to ruin anyone's relationship for I would really hurt someone who got into mines.

So we ended up really tired, it was great talking to him, and his still kind of cute, though I went to meet him with low expectations right now I know I would rather have a friend like him for years to come than a one nighter and be filled with akward moments later (which is not how I do things at all so maybe I'm growing up... aaah, don't want to remember growing up, my birthday is around the corner and still haven't made amends with that), So there you go Mr. For My Sake that's what happened : P (really nice guy).

Also on Thursday I went to see a great play called "Cthulhu's envoy" inspired in the novels of H. P. Lovecraft with a great script and with awsome actors (one really hot) and as it was a horseshoe audience I noticed this guy eyeing me all the play but later noticed he was with a boyfriend so I stopped caring. I'm exhausted from all my walking and talking so right now I've got a date with a warm shower and my bed, be it alone or with the one you love, but sleep tight!

P.S. sorry had some pictures I wanted to show but my memory stick got crazy and deleted everything, hate when that happens.

Under the inluence of drugs

It's been a while since I last posted, sorry 'bout that, I'm sick, that's not news but I also got the flu three days ago, yesterday I was in bed most of the day, alone :( with a horrible headache and drugged, I think the medicine is making me really happy and I don't think that's a good thing, haven't been able to do much but rest, although that didn't stop me from going to have a quick 10k run in under 45 minutes, I ended massively exhausted and thinking I was gonna die, but surprisingly today I woke up feeling better. Now the reason why I got the flu is really simple, I've been sleeping for five to six hours and working out for an average of 4 hours daily for the last three weeks, I know I shouldn't spend so many hours at the gym and the running track but since I was feeling really shitty I needed to do something and that's the best way I know to get things off my mind (besides sex but that was the problem to begin with since I don't have anyone at the moment to practice it).

Sadly, not many things new in my life, been at msn in the afternoons, getting to know all the kind people of this blog community, they have all been great to me and I hope that doesn't change, also I think everyone should visit Jeremy's blog and wish him a speedy recovery (for I wouldn't wish my worse enemy to go thru what's he's feeling).

In other news I just joined the list of 17, 000 other mexicans without employment, I decided I will take a time off work to finish my last term at school without anymore extra worries, so now I'm extra poor, but money has never been a problem since I never had it in the first place and that has never stopped me from doing the things I love the most like hanging around with my friends or going out on the weekends since Mexico is a really cheap country, anyways today I'll try to relax and overcome the flu, I'll try to be in msn in the evenings until I go back to school, so hope to see you there.

Big hug to all

Straight to School

No, I'm not having classes right now, I'm still enjoying three more weeks of vacations, and I send my deepest and sincere condolence to everyone who has started with their class already, But what do you do when you're alone, have lots of spare time, friends that have begun taking classes at a school where 80% of the male population is gay AND said school is two blocks from your house?? The answer: you dress up and pay them a visit.

So today I went to that school, which is public and really big, they teach international commerce, accounting, and many more related to such topics, I went to see a friend of mine, a girl called Rayo (which in english would translate as Thunder), I know her from my japanese classes (I studied japanese for two years), since she returned this saturday from Japan. As I waited for her to arrive I talked to a lot of people I haven't been able to talk to for a long time, and also I got to see the boy I'm dating on Saturday, Satou (for more references consult: Getting there)

Satou passed beside me in the entrance hall, I stood in front of him watching him as I couldn't believe he hasn't changed a lot in the last six years, he on the other side saw me but didn't recognize me!, I was about to talk to him when I saw he was with torchy!a girl with flowers in her hands, I couldn't but assume she was her girlfriend, so I didn't say anything and let them walk away, So I saw Rayo and she entered her class and I told her I would wait for her, went outside and started reading my book but rain started to pour, as I got into the halls I noticed Satou again walking with his girlfriend and I decided to pull him from his backpack until he was facing me, he was scared and didn't seem to know what was happening or who I was, and when I started to talk he couldn't believe it was me, we hugged for more than it would be confortable to hug a friend and I walked them over to his next class, we started talking and his girlfriend is a nice girl and we liked eachother, but it came a point in which she was really annoyed that Satou couldn't stop hugging me so he had to stop (that bitch!!! hehe), his next class was cancelled as the teacher didn't show up and we talked for almost an hour, the time came when I had to leave and so as he was talking to his girlfriend I hugged him from behind really tender and sweet and said good bye to his girlfriend, he turned and hugged me back, I'm so into seeing him this saturday (and him alone).

The rest of the day went without any consecuence, I had a coffee with Rayo and came home, tomorrow however I will have to go to my school to pay next term and do my timetable so that means going to Charly's office, we'll see how that turns out, I'm hopping for the better but who knows.

As it turns out I have to go with my sister to her new school so she can buy some books, she got accepted into this art school and I'm really happy about that because she's still young (only 14) and she will be able to develop her artistic skills, she loves drawing, I studied drama a couple of years back, now everyone complains I make such big dramas when I want something really bad :)

Anyways I'm really excited I just recieved my first post, thank you so much torchy!
I feel a part of the family already, and thank you all for following. That's all For now, have a great day and a even better (and busy) night.

A toast, to you, to me, to everyone

Just had one wonderful night out with my brother, we got to see the 1927 silent german movie "Metropolis", only this time a rock band was playing their version of how the movie should sound, it was weird sometimes as they were only two guys; one playing the guitar, the bass and lyrics, and the other the piano and the drums, it was really fun watching them switch their instruments and the movie is a real must-see classic. After that we got to a place called "The Beer Museum" located downtown, it was a really small place with lots of international beers, now I usually don't drink alcohol but it was a special ocassion to share a beer with my brother and so we asked for a Norwegian beer.That's my brother (before the beer), so as you can see we really don't drink that much.

Also the roses in the garden are already blossoming, that's really good as I love the sight of them next to the entrance door, but I have to cut them down and put them on some water before my "lovely" neighbors cut them and take them away.

But as this is the first one of the season, to everyone out there who's alone or feeling lonely tonight I dedicate this rose and a toast with my Carlsberg beer, Cheers to you and me, and may we feel better soon and be with the ones we love forever.

Take good care of yourselves and hope to hear from you